Giving Back

[Beautiful~Mistake]

we were driving down the road..
deeply engrossed in conversation..
when we turned a corner..
and the three of us..
all at once went Ooooooooooo wow!!
we almost swerved off the road..

we were coming up a hill..
it was a fairly straight road..
and you could see...
at the top of the hill..
the moon was coming up..
it was soOoOOoOoOOooo big
i could almost touch it,
if i stretched my fingers far enough....

we sped down the road to get to the beach...
and we drove right onto the sand...
the reflection of the moon on the water
stretched all the way to the shores
where our toes were
nestled snugly
into the wet sand..

it was... magikal...

and i realized...
today...
after my bout with nature..

........................ that i'm home

[Beautiful~Mistake]

i got lost today..
i had to rush from my group
to get to my interview
by that time my high heels had already started
eating my feet
i finished the interview
which went excellently,
might i add
and was early for the bus..
no big deal,
so i wandered around...

whatever, bla bla bla, i got off the bus at the wrong stop
WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY wrong stop
and got lost
comox is smaller than the town i came from...
and i got lost..
i walked like 2 hours in high heels
and noticed my feet were slightly....
raw
so i switched shoes..
bad idea
they ate my feet even worse
and i still had about another 10 km to walk

i walked over 20 km today
because of my own stupidity
and don't tell me it could happen to anybody
because anybody else
would have the brain power
to stop and ask somebody
where the fuck they were

[Beautiful~Mistake]

so i get lost the other day..
today i get up nice n early
so i can make it on time to my meeting
since i missed yesterdays
because i couldn't walk..

and who can't find the fucking bus stop..

oh but i found it
half a fucking hour too late...

i can't believe how fuckin stupid i am..
talk about self fucking pity

i dunno how the fuck i think i'm ever gonna fucking survive here
i can't even find a god damn fuckin bus stop on my own

[Blazey]

*ouch*..maybe get someone to draw it out on a sheet of paper..so you have it with you.. [img]redface.gif[/img] ..poor bebegirl..you will figure it all out..your in a new place its totally understandable...just be careful..ok [img]graemlins/heart.gif[/img]

[Beautiful~Mistake]

i got a map, now..
now i just need to learn to read maps =\
haha

...... what a fool i've been..
though i'm home,
i think i may have come here
just a touch too early
but i mean..
i had nowhere else to go

a month...
i'll give it a month...

today is paige 7..
two weeks sober, tomorrow
*attempts a lil dance

[girlie-girl]

paigey.....*huggies you really really big*

I miss you...

*S*

Just wanted you to know...

[Beautiful~Mistake]

GG..
it's always nice to see you pop up around here..
*huggs the stuffin outa ya..
i miss you, too!..
i wish i had the time these days
to sit down and catch up with my friends..
but this is the best i can do
for now, i hope

[Beautiful~Mistake]

the topic of "powerlessness" keeps coming up
at quite a few meetings
and before today,
i've never hadmuch to say about it
without breaking down
so i didn't say nuthin..
but today it came up again
so i put my two cents in..
and i realize..
well, i realized just today, actually..
that.. tho i may be powerless over alcohol
and a lot of things in my life
only i have the power
to make the choice
to make the change
's all i said..
everybody else went into
big huge speals about their problem
and what not..
but afterwards..
they all said
i said what they wanted to say
in very few words..

just my lil bit of somethin, today...

[Beautiful~Mistake]

i met a guy named Igor today
yes, igor..
he's from russia
i made two friends,
in two days
i'm absolutely ecstactic about it
did i spell that right? *L

i'm still all flabbergasted right now
because i had such a wonderful day

*today, i'm great*

aaaaaanyways..
we must have sat in the park for like 3 hours
and talked and talked
but it wasn't a conversation
you'd have with a stranger

it was really.. deep stuff..
kinda cool, to talk to people
on that level
without knowing them...

it was a total line,
but he wants to draw my picture
because he doesn't have a camera

.... these people are so cool
there's so much.. diversity here

the guy i met yesterday... eric..
he's just like me!..
it was so cool

i was beginning to think that
this town was full of fake people
because that's all i've met
strange how things work out..

[Beautiful~Mistake]

i have to tell you about the people i've met..
they're so wonderful
*L
this little man at the bus stop, yesterday
he was a little slow
i wouldn't say he was a handicap,
but one of them cute little men
happy in his own little world
*L he took my face in his hands,
kissed both my cheeks
and told me to stay beautiful *L
then he paid for my bus fare..
it was too cute for words..